i dont know how to.

i got a problem. or.. i am the problem.
raya dah dekat. balik kampung. jumpa orang ramai.
i'm not comfortable.

tak reti lah nak berbual beramah mesra bersenyum-senyum.
sungguh. tak reti.

lagi-lagi kalau pergi rumah orang. i wonder how my cousins can build a camaraderie with those sedara-sedara jauh. I DONT KNOW HOW TO. 
aku ni fake-smile je lah mampu. 

i'm not arrogant okay. my mouth is.

those new things.

dan sebenarnya aku masih duduk bergoyang kaki sambil ter-jumpa hobi baru

blogwalking blog yang macam ni i ii iii
well, this helps me a lot. credits to them. 
tahu tak bila tension pastu ada orang yang tulis macam happy dan talent nya mashaAllah pastu kita rasa amazing pastu kita pun ter-absorbed pastu kita pun macam malas nak tensi.

fangirling over recipes
maksudnya scroll resepi[s], dan
...."sedapnyaaa!" pastu sengih pastu copy pastu macam nak print tapi lupa sampai malam pastu delete. maka tiadalah sesi mempraktikkan apa yang telah ditengok.

dan...

E X O 
the typical me.

high expectation leads to nowhere

 

sabar.

ini namanya

kena belajar ikhlas

buat kerana Dia

bukan manusia 

there are people who like you and people who don't 

but to try to embrace even those who don't like you is too much too handle. 

so just dont disappoint the ones who loves you.

enough there.

belakang cakap lain
berbeza bila berdepan
ukir senyum manis
dalam hati dia
kau tahu?

hati tersenyum ikhlas ke sinis ke
kau tak tahu
aku tak tahu
dia tak tahu

ini 
aku sedang bercakap
tentang satu makhluk
namanya manusia

bliss.

SITUATION ONE.

i knew someone. well, in a literally way because i knew him/her at this social networks but not in the real life.

and her/his aphorisms were always these;
"i dont have many friends."
"my friends is good as tak payah ada langsung."
"i envy those peole who have many good friends."
bla bla bla
and suddenly a few days ago, it was her/his birthday.
aaand she/he rt-ing soo many wishes from her/his friends. so many doa from them. and i always see her/him smiling and happy-ing through his/her tweets. 
and i was like....eh. 
and i was puzzled. seriously serious. eh. i thought....he/she doesnt have friends.

SITUATION TWO.

"i didnt came from a rich family. my parents dont have much money. i envy my friends. their parents gave them all the things that they wanted." said A while putting out a samsung galaxy tab to play the 2048 game. 

SITUATION THREE.

i envy my friends. they are already studying at the university but i'm still here, staying at home like a king. bhahaha not exactly as the king.
(padahal best sebenarnya duduk rumah ni, doesnt need to think what to eat and mintak je apa semua dah tersedia.) 

...............

so i thought to myself, no matter what you want and what you have or what you want but you dont have it, it is a matter of being grateful.
we are the one who want to live the blissful life; so either we keep on whining for what we dont have or we just enjoy and appreciate all that given to us, it is on us.

we are the one to make the choice.
wanna be happy? be grateful.

by the way, upu's result will be out at this month of july if i'm not mistaken. pls pray me for the best.